LIAR I HATE YOU!

I LOVE YOU!!

1st of July.. school open day..

Well as you know it's all about report card..stupid report card making people sad..:@ I HATE YOU REPORT CARD!!! You're ruining my life! I hate you hate you hate you!! GRRR!!!! Well my mom came to take my report card..Aaron talked to my mom..ZZZ..my mom asked about his studies and results..=P haha..interesting..

Morning before the school bell ring, I was sitting between Aaron's leg..well when some "dogs" crossed by, he yelled at me..i nearly cry that time..it's just some "dogs" only mah!! and you don't need to be so afraid of them!! And how can you do that to me?? You know how that hurts?? I'm very upset to you...

I help Pn. Lam on some serial number thingy before recess..i think i missed the fun in class..=P After recess, gong gong kissed Aaron on his cheek when he was tying shoelace..and then Aaron got angry..OMFG!!!! Gong gong you've gone too far this time! But Aaron got wrong too because of his overreaction..haiz..i can't see it anymore so i run away to science lab with Tze Yi for the science thingy..i just can't see my boyfriend and my gong gong fight..=/ i felt really bad that time..=(

30/6/2010 The last day of June..a sad day..

Feel like crying now..because of him.. Why did he hurt me?? is it very fun?? Just can't understand..by saying sorry can't settle things down! I even almost cry in school after what he done that to me..some more Jerald keep talking crap! making my mood even worse..I try not to think about it but i can't! Aaron looked so fierce even i can't take it anymore..my mood was really really bad after that.. When recess time I pretend not to be sad and try cheering up myself..i did..he said sorry but it's useless to me..i pretend that i'm fine..and when i reached home and starting to talk with Aaron online, the incident suddenly came into my mind..makes me feel like crying again... Why can't his temper be more good? haiz...i think this question's answer need to be answer by himself...=/

Tomorrow taking report card..hope i won't get into any trouble...

What will you do when you hurt someone? Say sorry?? Buy something for her?? That's not gonna work..it's useless..When you hurt someone means stabbing her with a knife at her heart and it makes a mark there..saying sorry can't make that mark disappear but making it bleed out..be care full when you want to do or say something..think of the consequences..don't regret after you did it because it's too late..

29/6/2010 Happy but not really happy..

Walau..taking results on Thursday..T_T D.E.A.D man..worse nightmare..T_T i hope i won't die that day..T_T

Well these days my temper wasn't very good..i think period coming soon..=( short temper..sometimes if dear joke with me i felt annoyed..i'll be 小气 before and when period..hate my attitude, hate period..=( i'm sorry if i make some of you guys angry or feel that i'm 小气 .. please understand me..

I stayed back in school today for fun..Aaron didn't give me enough kisses today..lol.. Never mind larh..i don't mind at all..=) just playing for fun..XD Well i'm going to Aaron's house to play again next Friday..i'm so happy!^_^ woohoo~ We're gonna have private time together again..^_^ haha..=D

Saw jie's blog..so funny larh..say Aaron must thank you because pursuit me to let him go cc..lol! XD

Well i'm thinking bout something..is it every guy living on earth likes to have sex?? Don't blame me because i ask this question guys..i think because you, guys make me think like that..and why do all the guys like it?? So confuse..and you guys don't even have a specific answer that why you want to do sex with girls..so hilarious..its very unfair for all the girls! Don't you guys thought about it before? Is it all the guys are not caring at all? Guys just know sex but not caring enough! Example Jerald, he always don't care about Hui Qing..he just know how to play computer and insult people..sorry for saying that but it's the truth..I felt pity for Hui Qing, she could find a better boy friend than Jerald... Well at least Aaron is better than him although he always been so childish, ham sap, but he is still being a very good boy friend and treat me very well..this is his specialty..=)I LOVE AARON!

Aaron saw my essay today..don't know what is he going to do..or say....lol

28/6/2010 Unhappy day..

My school results suck! I hate it man! My purata is like shit! 68.00, 25Th! I want to get top 20! At first I was 19Th, then I thought i was going to drop until 20Th only because Youliang's Chinese result calculated wrongly..but something changed! Seni results pulled my purata down..because of teacher's mistake, the results lied to me!!! T_T i was very sad and disappointed when i got the newest results..but never mind,all i have to do is get 7A's in PMR..=)

I haven't got enough kisses from Aaron today..=P I've become kinda greedy nowadays..XD Dear you owe me alot alot of kisses!! You must pay me back TOMORROW!! I will add tax in it..XD hehe..
Aaron told me that he couldn't tahan anymore..i'm so sorry my dear..=( release it out next Friday kay? After that you need not tahan anymore..=) just be patient..

Today i got piano..T_T i hate it man!! Piano just sucks the hell out of me!! I would have to follow teacher to Vicky's house with my eldest brother..T_T T_T T_T can i stop? I dun wanna take the exam anymore! Just let me fail! I will have no regret!

Night & Evening~* 27/6/2010

I just finished my Sejarah project! Woohoo~! I'm so happy!^^ But i always use Aaron's printer ink to print things..felt so wrong..=( sorry dear..

Well..Aaron is very naughty today..xD haha..i know he'll be angry of me if he sees this but its true..=P I keep teasing him by saying i'm angry..hehe..tomorrow i'll get alot alot of kisses & huggies from him..^^ i didn't tell him i wanted this but i guess he can figure it out..=) Jason asked me whether can go concert in dream world again like last year..but i'ts different this year because i'm going with Aaron..=)

(Dear can you go out on July 18th? We go concert okay? I hope you can go..=))

27/6/2010

I've lost 2 days to update my blog..=( sad.. Well today is Sunday, I'm rushing my Sejarah project..We have to hand up to Puan Margaret at Monday that means tomorrow but i didn't even started!! HELP!!! T_T I think I'm gonna be dead if i didn't hand in.. T_T

Well something happen between me and Aaron today again..and yesterday we're both sad..Aaron wanted to go cybercafe again but i still have to think about it because I think that cybercafe is a bad place..i think I've been influence by my mom..T_T Actually I'm already asleep when Aaron text me at night and tell me that he was sad and felt like crying..i felt like crying too..but my tears won't fell off..i was very suffering that time..i saw that message at morning when i woke up today..i was very worried about him..i hope i could be with him at that time so he can be happy again..how useless i am..=( Actually he was worried about me when after graduate and gone overseas study and when i come back i have no love in him anymore..傻瓜！我说过我不会离开你嘛。。你要对我有信心啊!虽然有很多人会移情别恋，但是这并不代表我们也会这样啊。。所以别担心了啦。。 You cannot leave me too dear..remember it..

friendships

Friends are like rainbows...
They brighten your life after you've gone...
Through a storm...

When the rainbows are gone forever...
that means that your world...
is gone forever too...

Friendships are important, each one unique, each one amazing with different strengths and personalities. Each one an angel sent from above. I love them and Because of their differences they are each called my best friends =)

24/6/2010 a happy but not happy day

Another long boring day..Pn Norsila didn't come to school..she's going to give birth i think..=P Congrats Pn. Norsila!^^ Well there is no teacher in our class so we have a free period to play around... The boys are playing around like monkeys..susu taught Youliang to break dance..Benjamin and Ivan were chasing each other..Weng Woh is still so annoying..he asked me some non-sense questions: when is Aaron's birthday? can Aaron go to Sunway Pyramid?...bla bla bla...i hate him a lot! He is annoying, perasan, short, and always talk about disgusting things.. Its even more worse when geography period, Pn Mariam's didn't come to school so we have Pn. Tan as a relief teacher.. He came to the back and talked a lot of annoying and disgusting stuff to Susu, Hui Qing, me and chi Wei..me and Hui Qing feel like slapping him but i manage to control myself.. When moral period, teacher is marking our paper to add marks for us..so at that time, Weng Woh, Zhan Ber, Youliang and Sang Leng came to the back and chat..its very fun talking to them..but not Weng Woh, he talked bout Belinda this, Belinda that...Belinda DOES NOT like you before la dumb ass! Stop acting like she does! Look in the mirror before you talk about other people's face! Just admit it she doesn't like you before! Besides that, he talked a lot of bad words today, me and Hui Qing fine him a lot of money today..its almost about rm62..so he gave me a lot of bullshit..he said, can i pay u by check? And, I need to pay back Aaron something first then only i can pay u guys.. BULLSHIT!! you never give your words la! you don't deserve to be a boy! Even my brother is 100% way better than you! I felt angry and started scolding him..i cannot tolerate people saying this kind of bullshit stuff..luckily Aaron came to my class and start beating him up..but he's in a good luck, there were a lot of people in my class so i called Aaron stop beating him.. Well after we get the money, we will have to give some to Aaron because he's the biggest helper to get the money..I'm so proud of u my dear..=D thank you! I love u! <3.....

Today dear didn't get enough kisses so he keep calling me to give him more sayang..=) what a greedy dear!=D but i don't mind..because i love him..<3 He got tuition today, i'm gonna miss him very much! =(

Well today Jerald keep saying that i taught Aaron porn stuff..but i did not!! Stop talking crap la Jerald! Its very very annoying! Don't be the 2nd Weng Woh! >_<.... some more say me "fei cai"! Look who's talking! Who are you?? You're my what?? NOTHING!! Just a friend! An ordinary friend! You don't have the right to say me like that!! :@ And stop kacau me! I'm very fed up by what you do to me already! Very very sorry Hui Qing..but i just can't stand it anymore..your lao gong is too much already..please call him to stop saying and doing all those non-sense stuff!! I don't wanna do something that can ruin our friendship..

谁可以帮我？？
我好想哭却哭不出。。
好辛苦哦！！
为什么你要这样对我？？？
为什么？？
你知道这伤害有多深吗？？？
虽然我爱你，可是你也不能这样对我！！
谁可以救我？？T_T

23/6/2010

I just got my Malay results..i felt so sad when i got it..59%..it sucks man!!! SUCKS!!! I fell like crying out loud when i got it..but i can't..i just CAN'T..so suffering! It's like my tears are gone..I just hope Aaron is beside me just now..

Although sometimes when we're far apart, but our heart are always near each other..u took my heat away from me..but i took yours too..=) we own each other's heart..and i won't lose it forever..

There is a campaign in school today, the Digi company came to my school to do some ceramah thingy..lucky me i get to sit with my dear..^^ I'm very happy at that time..but Jerald keep talk crap..i felt so annoying..>_< but hui qing just sit there and do nothing..i was abit shocked..

Well, talk about happy things..today Aaron gave me a lot of kisses..its so sweet..=) he gave me huggies too..=D i was very happy until i got my Malay results..=( my mood was very very down after that..but luckily I'm at home alone today talking to Aaron on phone..=D

But happy things don't last.. He asked me: "do you think i'm suitable to be your boyfriend?".....at first i can't answer this question..because i was very very scared..scared that he would leave me..every time when he ask me this kind of question..i can't even think of anything..i was very very afraid to think..

对你的爱。。

当我伤心时，你会出现在我身边。。
当我需要你时，你会立刻出现。。
因为这样。。
才让我感觉到你的重要。。
也让我更珍惜你。。
我对你的爱，不是三言两语就能表达出来的。。
也不是别人能够轻易了解的。。
我们的爱，是两个人一起酝酿出来的。。
彼此的感情就比天高，比海更深，永远都不能尽。。

虽然一句我爱你不能表达些什么。。
但是却意味着我对你那无尽的爱。。
所以，我只想对你说：我爱你！！！ 永永远远都爱你！！！<3

2nd day of school..22/6/2010

Another lousy day..my English result suck the hell out of me..>_< it's 8o% but I'm still not satisfied..my science results is making it more worst..76%..i think i can't even get top20 this time..my results suck in this term's exam..but I'm quite satisfied with my Chinese results..70 something..my Chinese essay got 25/30..its the best mark i ever get..teacher even read my essay to the class..my friends laughed when teacher read it..so embarrassing! Well the story is quite creative, but i can't let dear see it because hui qing say that if he sees it, he'll be angry..=P Its just a long story though..but maybe i will do it if that really happens.. [p/s: dear if u really want to know what i wrote in the essay then tell me in school tomorrow.]

Well..i have a lot of sweet times with Aaron again today..but time passes so quickly..i just want to stay with him and don't wanna leave him.. Well something happened..Jing Jing got my nerves today..she hit Aaron with a can..i was shocked about what she done to him..Aaron yell in pain, and then some anger got into me..i was heart broken when she hit him..if i had the bravery in me then i could have scolded her seriously in front of the class..

I got piano class today..piano just sux! After piano, i continued my conversation with Aaron, well when we chat, he said that he cannot bear the suffer anymore..i didn't regret by doing something i shouldn't do with him but i regret effect by making him so suffering..I mean I love him..I can do anything for him..I didn't regret doing that with him but I regret because making him suffer from the desires..i feel so sad when he tell me that he couldn't bear it anymore..because I'm the 1 that make him suffer from it..I'm so sorry my dear..

Aaron didn't give me kisses today in school..i want him to pay me back tomorrow!xD haha..if he didn't give me kisses tomorrow, then i shall punish him by calling him to hug me..=p haha..weird punishment right? =D How "manja" am I..haha..=D

The 1st day of school after holiday..21/6/2010

An awful day at school..i got my maths, sejarah and moral results..maths and sejarah just suck... Lousy marks..math=69, sejarah=55. Moral is just nice..77.. Aaron just failed some subject..we're both sad of our lousy shit marks..trying to cheer ourselves up though..by thinking what we've done in holidays..=) those sweet times helped alot..what a caring dear I got..i felt so lucky when i think that he is mine..<3 Im very happy when being together..i wish that he'll be mine FOREVER..

We spent alot of sweet times being together..i appreciate the times with him..although some times we quarrel..but i heard that sometimes quarrel can make our feeling even more deeper..well i think its right, because i can understand him more..sometimes..but by making us sad..it just hurts my feelings..

Sometimes Aaron just like saying me childish..am I childish?? NO!! >_< Of course not!=P But some times I could be..xD by playing some lame games with him..haha! funny times..=D