Just feel like crying..now i really hate myself more than ever..why have i become like  this??? I never been like this before..can't i just change myself??? its so hard to change back to my own self..i needed help, but he didn't even offer his help to me..i need him..sometimes he really doesn't know when I needed him the most..NOW I'M LOST...i think I'm getting even worse..

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